Lately I had been thinking if I wanted things to happen for a reason or just because it made me feel happy and alive.
Making decisions are part of our lives and I beleive that by making those decisions whether it would turn positive or negative, we have to be ready for it and to accept the consequences and most of all never turn back and never regret on the things you did.
There are lot of stupid things I made in my life but none of it I regretted.
This past few weeks I came to the point wondering why I do these things. Why do I risk? I met this one person who changed some of my perceptions in life. Quite a different person. Sometimes you can just like the person and going beyond that may hurt you or may confuse you. So instead, you back off , keep your distance and guard your heart. Like what that person said, "JUST playing by the RULES". Shocking for me to hear. I was hurt a bit but it doesn't matter because that person is right. And another shocking sentence, "Promise that we will NEVER say I LOVE YOU even if we are feeling like saying to...". Maybe it is the right thing to do. But knowing that person? I think it is not possible for that person to love me and I want to keep it that way... like what that person said "Play by the Rules" so that you will not get hurt.
I think one important thing to remember is not to be attached. I love our friendship. I love the pampering that I get form that person. Life maybe complicated but whenever we are together I feel like it is not. But... reality Bites my friend... it really does....